Guys-or are they just grown up boys???

Like I should say, I'm tired of trying to be faithful to one person that I called lover, but then at the end, it's nothing... Where the hell is my MR.RIGHT go???

Huhhhh!!! I dunno what happened to me recently, am I a magnet of trouble?

I just want a true love...

Just any people can say he love me, but can I trust that? Really? Love me, but then you keep on getting mad at me, and show me your hatred with such a look...

Isn't love is to show your lover how much you value her? Even if she's not beautiful, not rich, not cute, not clever, not so good in attitude, you will always be with her at good times and hard times...

I can just let go of my latest ex, he's the most understandable person I've ever known, and because he know me so much, he feels, errrmmm, "little" as compared to me. I just know what he means, and I understand, as a guy, he must have been arrogant that finally he have to let me go-to other person he think better than him.

Biasalah, lelaki kan ego!

But, there's one person, he used to be my classmate at school, before I enter UiTM, he confessed that he likes me, and he had this crush since we were in form 4, I think. I have never ever realized that and it was a tough time to try to admit the reality, it's hard for me( why don't he tell me before?). I can't accept his propose- to become his girlfriend- I still anggap dia kawan. But he can't geddit, he pursue me. I think I'm going crazy at that time. I cry every night, I can still remember macam mana bengkaknye mata time tu. He's a player, he had a girlfriend at that moment, how am I suppose to be his girlfriend? I don't understand him, not anymore, not as a friend, not as a lover.

But then many series of PERTELINGKAHAN kami causes me to ask him for a break up, I didn't agree for the couple anyway! He can't let me go, he said he love me so much, he wants to marry me. But I said, i can't keep holding on with a person who can't understand my pain, who can't make me fell loved, who always argue with me, who think that he's always right and I'm wrong. He just didn't get me, my feelings, he hurt it so much... He is just one boy whose still being childish at this stage of age. One value I want from a man, that he is matured, means that he is fully grown up, I don't care if he is stupid, bad man, not so rich, not so good-looking, just be matured! Thank You.